6 years and it’s still too hard

it’s been 6 years and i still cry every time i listen or think of them. every song i remember they aren’t here with us anymore, will never smile or do what they love again, and died painfully by each other’s side. i know it must be wrong to only think of how they’re gone when listening because they were so much more, but it’s so hard. when does it get better? does anyone feel the same way 😢