I hate how undisciplined I am

I've realized I am undisciplined when it comes to manifesting and many other aspects of my life. Like I have manifested very specific and fun things like an orange cat, a pet hamster, a free 40 gallon long tank for said hamster (no water obviously it's just a big tank lol), a very specific friend with a specific name, and other very specific things.

I get really excited that manifesting is real. Then when I try to manifest things I really need I get lazy because it genuinely requires more work.

Like when I do SATs for a silly thing to test the law, I can put in a lot of emotion to manifest it and it works. But let's say I want to manifest money, a job I love or my own apartment, I really can't feel any emotion even though I really want them.

Also the reason I can manifest fun things is because I can let go very easily. But I keep mentally and emotionally hyperfocusing on my problems and the stress of my job. I don't have the discipline it seems to just assume everything will work out.

I think meditating would be extremely beneficial but I'm too lazy to really do it.

I gotta stop being lazy so I can change my life. :(