Are certain people just not meant to be drivers?

For full disclosure I am from NYC so I didn't really grow up in a driving culture and when I began taking driving lessons at 19 I had never been behind the wheel of a car before. I have a license - I failed the first road test but passed the second... But honestly I really suspect/know it's just because my tester was attracted to me. We were using the driving school car and he had to press the passenger's side brake to prevent me from crashing into something during the test. I was sure I had failed but at the end he said "You're not a good driver really but you're beautiful so I'm going to pass you.". I'm not trolling and was really saddened by this comment but I just took it because what could I do? And I was convinced I'd never pass on my own.

Over the years I never really drove much (NYC made it unnecessary) because being behind the wheel is just terrifying to me and I just...never seemed to get the hang of it despite understanding the mechanics. I was living in Little Rock when I was 25 and some coworkers desperately begged me to drive a short distance during an emergency despite my telling them I was a horrible driver and had not driven in years. They convinced me and I was doing ok but on the way home I tried to pass another car and hit it. 🥹. The cops were really nice and seemed to understand I was clueless and just told me to be careful and just let me off without a ticket.

I have been terrified of driving and haven't driven in the ensuing 15 years. I'd really love to learn and have the freedom to do things like go on road trips or possibly move to a different city which is basically impossible in America outside of maybe five cities if you don't have a car.

Does anyone have any advice? Is there any hope? Do you think I just don't have what it takes?

Please be kind because I am really sensitive about this. And yes I understand the danger of driving recklessly which is why I won't do it until I am more confident in my abilities because I'd never want to put innocent pedestrians and drivers in danger due to my selfishness.

Thanks all