Day 59 - i kinda like this benefit

So this Monday, I started an online course to get my high school diploma. For context, after middle school, I went straight into a bricklayer apprenticeship and never went to high school. It’s been eight years since I last sat down to actually study, so I had no system, no structure—just vibes.

But ever since I started retaining (59 days now, no wet dreams, no release), something clicked. The pressure to pass my exams, to move forward in life—it didn’t stress me out like it used to. Instead, it flipped a switch. Now I’m managing my time better, squeezing in study sessions at work, building actual systems to retain information. I’m thinking in solutions, not excuses—something I never did back when I was constantly draining myself.

I’m also locked in with my workouts, my running, my discipline. My focus is unreal, and learning feels effortless. My brain just connects things faster. I know I’m gonna get this diploma and move on to college, no doubt about it.

And about women—flaky, big-ego ones that used to ghost? They’re randomly coming back, apologizing. But I’m unbothered. Maybe it’s because I don’t put them on a pedestal or try to sexualize them like most guys do. Some even seem thrown off by it. Meanwhile, I’m attracting more genuine, down-to-earth women, and the connections actually feel real.

Honestly, I don’t even care much about sex anymore. Between working overtime and pushing for a better position at work, my time is already packed. Chasing women just feels like a distraction at this point.

And when frustration or fear kicks in? My brain doesn’t even waste time dwelling—it just looks for a solution and moves on.

Semen retention isn’t some magic trick, but it forces you to level up in ways you don’t expect. And once you do, there’s no going back.