Poetic rambling

Numb that’s all I feel, I wake up feeling like an imposter of the person I once was , a ghost passing through life , the soul who was never able to be set free but to remain on earth for eternity . I see , I hear, and feel that all around me is moving forward yet I stayed the same no matter how bad I want to break out of my monotonous routine I just can’t.

I’m unhappy but happy at the same time I just can’t put my finger on it. I feel the love from everyone around me but yet I can’t compute it I feel like there’s more for me in life but I don’t have the motivation to go for it. One day I will break out of this either i’ll escape this horrific mental space or I’ll be rotting away. No matter how much I say I’m fine or when I used to go to a therapist to talk about how not fine I was or how my life has been I felt it pointless.