these groinal responses r grossing me tf out

it feels so real! i hate it! i want it to stop! i cant live w this! omg.

i know i shouldnt be testing to make sure if i get a groinal response or not but i cant help it! its almost like i have no control over it.

and gosh i keep getting these responses every time i test myself. sometimes i feel like im fake hating it but i’d never want this! idw this at all! but why am i still getting these responses every time my heads replaying it?

why havent i spent my life ever being normal? why do i have to be this way? (w & w/o ocd)