Anyone else also have OCD symptoms & question every damn thing?

I’m not diagnosed but relate to everyone in this group completely in regard to NPD. When I looked into NPD a couple of years ago it sent me into panic attacks and anxiety where I was trying to find stable grounds inside of myself. I guess I got scared of who I was and detached as it was too much to comprehend. I’m now scared to be me because it’s narcissistic & I know it gets me into trouble.

Since then I’ve also had OCD like symptoms. The problem is I feel like I’m constantly looking for answers and questioning what is ‘real’ or not. Because I can’t know for sure I’m in an almost constant state of anxiety. I know that OCD can make you question who you are and will attach to your values, this is where it gets confusing for me; is OCD convincing me I’m a bad person and I’m manipulating, gaslighting, lying etc etc or am I actually doing it?

Does anyone else have this predicament?