intersectionality / being trans with bpd
i don’t know if a lot of yall have heard of it, but i’m a trans woman with bpd. it stands for borderline personality disorder. it is known as the most painful mental health disorder a person can have. it’s been described as having emotional 3rd degree burns all across your body.
it’s characterized by extreme emotions, and an intense and debilitating fear of abandonment.
when i came out as trans my symptoms fully came to light. the abandonment i experienced from losing friends and loved ones threw me into this emotional undertow that took me years to get out of.
there is also a massive massive stigma out there surrounding the disorder. many people (especially in online communities), hate people with bpd and paint us as monsters. this on top of the stigma and hate towards being trans makes my life extremely difficult. it feels like living life on nightmare mode.
does anyone else struggle with this? i’m curious to see. it’s a struggle that i feel very alone in. i fear one day that this disorder will kill me. it makes dysphoria hell. anytime i’m misgendered it triggers me into a bpd episode, and can ruin my whole day or week.
i wish i was a neurotypical cis person so badly. my life would be astronomicaly better in every way shape or form.