2.5 years postpartum - now pre-diabetic

TW: post-partum pre diabetes. I know many of you are actively going through GD and see post-pregnancy as light at the end of the tunnel so this isn’t meant to scare. But I know this community has been really supportive even after pregnancy.

Posting here because this news feels more triggering because of the GD diagnosis. But I had my annual physical on Tuesday, and both my glucose level (107 - not truly fasting) and A1c (5.7) were out of range. So I’m now pre-diabetic. I feel, I don’t know, a lot right now. Angry at myself, scared at what this means for my future health, defeated because I feel like I do eat healthy and exercise most of the time. It’s been really difficult to control my weight these last two years as I’ve struggled to find a birth control to help with some of the post-partum hormonal issues. I’m mostly scared at what life will look like now and how to navigate this with a young daughter who I very much want to have a healthy relationship with food. It’s so important to me that we eat dinner every night together and the same meal. She’ll already ask me some days “mommy, you’re not eating the pasta!” It’s hard to explain to her why not. This will also put more on my husband as I prioritize my health first and that makes me feel so guilty.

Any moms out there going through this? What does this diet look like compared to the GD diet? I can’t do that diet again, for both physical and mental reasons. Eating that much fat is not good for my cholesterol either.

This sucks 😔