I wish time could go backwards

I just finished school, got my dream job and was finally starting to make it in life. I grew up poor finally got a scholarship to be a pilot, spent 4 years studying and finally got a job and then one day it all shattered. What did I do wrong? Was it my fault? Did someone else do this to me? The Keppra is horrible and these days it feels like I’m completely alone. Although I’ve felt the keppra rage subsiding over the past few months will it ever go away completely? How does your social life come back. What do you guys do for work? I’m 23 and it’s I’ve never dealt with anything like this before.