that one danmei that RUINED you?

i want to read a devastatingggg story doesnt matter if the ending is happy or sad i just want one that makes you feel like utter shit WHILE reading and ruins your life one that makes u wish you could just isekai into the world to seek justice for the ml/mc 🥰 the closest i got to this feeling was when reading certain chapters from misvil and 2ha so if u have similar ones to recommend please do! i want sth reallllly gutwrenching that just makes one nauseous and cry