Anyone else get triggered by people assuming the worst about their intentions?

Today I had a realisation, after waking up to texts from my partner, were he has assumed my fvckup with an international time difference, was intentional. The thing is, I then realised I have been defending myself for 3 years from accusations that always assume the worst about my intentions or why I did or didn’t do something.

And today I finally realised this was my childhood. Constant anxiety and fear of f^ckg up, because it could never be a mistake for my mother. For my mother anytime I did wrong was because I had malicious intent.

Today really floored me. I feel devastated but relieved. Something makes sense about how I started falling apart in the last couple of years.

Is there a name for this behaviour? Have other people experienced this?