what’s it like to live without anxiety?

ever since i was 4 i've had really bad generalized, social, and separation anxiety. i have panic attacks every week and i embarrass myself over and over in front of people for getting so anxious over something that everyone else can do. there are so many things that i can't do to the same level as everyone else because of my anxiety. i'm so jealous of people without anxiety disorders. yeah, everyone has anxiety but there are people out there who will never have a panic attack. i hate when people without anxiety disorders tell me "everyone has anxiety". it's not the same. you're so lucky that you don't have my anxiety and you don't even know it. what's it like to live without crippling anxiety?